Hi Jacob. Good to see you back online, it's been a while!! Quite a dark, tormented picture the words paint.
well described emotions, we all have our thorns...I recently came across a rose bush that had no scent, my daughter said they are for places where people don't want to attract the bees...what the heck is this world coming to??? seriously...sheesh :P
Hope some light will clear away the darkness surrounding you...
Good job, Jacob
Very cool I love it;)
Looks like you suffered with your search and I hope you found what you was looking for.